the truth is never reveal

my face, my faith, my friends, i lost.

2009-11-24T20:48:00.001+08:00

I can’t believe what you said to me
Last night when we were alone
You threw your hands up
Baby you gave up, you gave up?

Could we fix you if you broke?
And is your punch line just a joke?

al-fatehah.

2009-10-27T17:34:00.001+08:00

I was sitting in the living room when Sunday’s Berita Minggu front page caught my attention. ‘Penyakit ‘misteri’ dengan sekelip mata ragut nyawa ibu muda’ and there was a picture of a man with his wife holding their child. The lady in the picture look rather familiar so I searched for her name, Shaffadina b. Jamil aged 20. She looked like Oshin but I don’t know Oshin’s real name and aged. I called up Hairul and tell him about the news. We were both very curious and wanted to confirm whether the girl in the news was really Oshin that we used to know. Manage to call up Imam and sadly it was true. A young life lost.

It was in January 2006 when I got to know this young girl. She was the girlfriend of Imam back then. I didn’t know her name or age then. All I know is that she lived very near where I’m staying. She was there for my 20th birthday. She was there when I first step into Sentosa ‘again’. She was there to chill with us. She was there to crack lame theories about life. She was there to add some life during our study period for the exams. She was cheerful, bubbly and loud. Even though I only have the chance to know her for a short period of time, those memories will be there forever.

Condolence to her family and may Allah forgive her sins and mistakes in life.

bored bored

2009-10-20T14:59:00.000+08:00

GOD! what's happening to me?

Let me recall what I can remember within this month.
Been very busy and sick. From Raye till now. What telah happen?

26th September.
Managed to get 2 sets of tickets to Singapore F1 GP Night Race. Well, Im not a fan of racing car, but damn, wat an experience. I guess I was lucky. Hairul almost got himself lucky but too bad, if wasnt for his commitment to the nation, he would probably be there with me. hahahaha.

27th September
Went to Hairul's Raya Open House. The Mee Rebus was SEDAP!!!
Karaoke with Hairul and Supi at Cash Studio. Like the old times. :)

28th Sept to 3rd Oct
When countries around the world being hit by natural disaster, I was hit by an UN-natural virus. People can name hurricane katrina, i name my virus Fiona. I think only Hairul and Supi will know why. hahaha.
I got high fever for 6 days straight for no bloody reason. I was bed bound. No work, no ciggy, no gf. :(
I recovered just in time for Jalan Raye NON VI SED ARTE.

4th October
Its just not US. guess I will have to wait for another year.
Jalan Raye with my Sec Friends. Naqia was there too. :)
I think it was happening and fun event. NoN-stop jokes. I'll upload pictures here later.

16 October
The first 2 week of Oct went well. Then come the night of 161009. hell break loose again, this time it was something much serious, suspected of 'food poisoning' sort of ah. Haiz....
I was invited over to an Indian Family house on the 15th for dinner. It was a typical indian family. well the food, no doubt it was nice but it was too HOT and Spicy. curry and spicies everywhere in the food. alamak. I thought I'll stop at one serving, but no. the faster u finish up the food, the more food they will add to ur plate. hehehe. alamak!!!
i felt feverish that night but i thought it will go off the next day.
sarturday, 16 oct, still having fever in the morning but still insisted of playing soccer. so i played from 0930 till 1330hrs with no problem. felt abit weak but everything seems to be fine.
rested at home after soccer then my temperature rise and i started vomiting. i still insist that everything will go away the next day and i will be just fine. But HELL NO, it got worsen on sunday. Blood was present when i vomit. i lost my voice. felt so shitty and weak vomited over 30 days between sat and sun.
given up, so i end up at TTSH, warded. first time in my life ive been warded.
its nice to see my family, gf and friends to visit me. Thank you for taking time off from ur daily busy schedule to actually visit me. :)
I dont know how long I'll be in here. IM TIRED AND BORED. I want to go home.

just tahan with my lenghty post. Im just BORED. haiz....

dead but NOT gone

2009-10-20T14:57:00.000+08:00

sick :(

Are You Happy Now?

2009-09-24T13:27:00.001+08:00

Bye T.Island. HELLO S.Island.
Sentosa with Gf, Supi and Hairul.
Thank god it was sunny the whole day.
Frisbee (no more), mini soccer, sea, sun, sand, big-two, etc……
Its been awhile since I step into Sentosa.
Can’t wait for Universal Studio to open. =))

Random Shots.

@ Sakura

@ Sakura

Hairul and Supi

Us.

I Kissed A Girl

2009-09-22T06:47:00.001+08:00

I’m cruising away.
Good morning people.
=)

I want to hold you hands

2009-09-15T14:16:00.001+08:00

Hey girl, where's your drink? We goin' all get real drunk tonight……… eh?!! belum lagi ah… nyah..

So again, I fail to turn up at work because I wake up late. nyah.
Meet up with my secondary school friend on the 060909.
Its been about 4 years since we last go out together. Fara and Syafiq wasn’t there tough because they can’t be contacted.
Insya-allah we will meet again for jalan raya on the 041009.

the girls

the guys

all of us

Liza, Siti, Yana, Azzizah, Nurul, Ridwan, Me, Hilman and Reezal.

sierra Charlie

2009-09-09T12:01:00.001+08:00

I’m on a mission. Have been doing this half my life. Its fun and thrilling. Army have taught me well and boost up my skill and mentality. Operation Sierra Charlie I call it. It will happen and it can happen. Revenge is sweet.

our time is up

2009-08-30T19:30:00.001+08:00

I find it kind of funny, I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I’m dying are the best I’ve ever had
I find it hard to tell you, I find it hard to take
When people run in circles its a very Mad World.

cut

2009-08-29T07:36:00.001+08:00

Is this masquerade finally over
Can we put down the roles that we've played so many times
Is this really the final curtain
The end of the play

random

2009-08-27T00:40:00.001+08:00

P.I.S.s.e.d o.f.f

2009-08-27T00:35:00.001+08:00

why should i help someone that cannot be helped?
why should I even bother with someone that cannot be bothered?

ex-colleague of mine is getting on my nerve. I’ve been very patient with him through out my stay at Kinergy. Cigarettes. Drinks. Lunch. Transport. Money.
Is it a must to smoke?
Is it a must to buy drinks from the vending machine?
Is it a must to have lunch at the centeen?
Is it a must to travel by bus?
Is it a must to borrow money to please someone else?
Fucking retarted.
Been asking for my bloody mcard, no sight of it. Wonder who took my money in my pouch? Wonder who took my MP3? I wonder? Answers which only point back at you.
You can pretend to Mr nice guy infront of me nut you are no different to any typical mats out there.
1, 2, 3, 5, 10, 20, 30. These are the figures that you asked from me.
How dare you could even ask from me again when you have not clear your debt?
So wat you are being terminated from the job. You deserve it. I don’t care.
I’m going to hunt you down. mutherwanker.

that’s life R.I.M.A.S

2009-08-25T02:58:00.001+08:00

its been so long…….

what i’ve done?
Life’s in a mess. I wish I could turn back time.

My life, friends and family.
Ever since I was drop off from poly, my life is in a mess. If only i work harder during those days things would be different now. I’m starting to regret decisions I’ve made. Its damn fuck up.
What would my life be now IF i were to complete my diploma??? Things would be different. Better.
Looking at my friends. At least they are holding a Cert not just with a freaking O level cert.
nyah

Life
I’m starting to hate the life that I have now. Its so miserable. Damn pathetic. Its not easy to get a job out there. I’m job hopping. Whenever there’s a better options, I’ll go for it. Currently I’m working at one of Singapore’s statutory boards. A move from Kinergy. So ya.
I’m re re re re taking my Os again. In hoping for a better grades. haiz. I’m tired of it.
I need a permanent job. I want to settle down. I’m freaking old already. I’m so far behind from the rest. Life is a disaster.

Friends
Used to have a reasonable number of friends but now, I’m no longer contacting most them. Not their fault. I sacrifice that for happiness. Not all would understand why i said that.
Supi, Dinah, Hilman, Naina.
I thank you for being there for me. Thank you for adding happiness to my life. =))

Family
Its either I don’t understand them of they don’t understand me. I want to lead my own life. Ye la, ‘you’ said that my friends will not be there when I’m in trouble. There will only be there if I’m okay. But, since when you were around supporting me in the things that I do? Things that I like/love doing huh? No, ‘you’ weren’t there. YES, my friends were there for me most of the time. I will NEVER be like ‘you’.

Love
I love you. But why we end up this way? Yes, finally I give in. I give up. Its me. Its my fault. Its my temper that spoil it all. Its my poor ability to make U happy fuck it all up. or maybe its because of other factors?
I bring you up and the next moment I bring you to lowest point. Never fail to make you cry, don’t I? Have I betray you?

I don’t know. Ya, maybe its all different now.
I’m on the edge, save me.

Bila hati kecil mula berkata. Ingin pula meluahkan segalanya. Wajah tampan seorang jejaka. Tidak jemu walaupun dipandang lama. Pabila dengannya seperti ku miliki dunia. Jika berjauhan jiwaku meronta. Adakah ini cinta atau permainan rasa. Kerana sesaat tanpanya, aku seperti hilang arah. Dirinya umpama permata yang berharga da tidak mungkin ada tandingannya.

remember, ALWAYS smile. 180807

Selagi daya hatiku ini akan tetap ku menyayangi duka tiada ku peduli bila rindu membelenggu

what a goal!

2009-07-16T23:30:00.001+08:00

Took 1/2 day today for Viper coy cohesion @ Safra Tampines.
Surprisingly, many turn up. Ord-ed commanders were also there. (Khamal, Idaly, Kairul, John, Amin, Wei Chao, KK)
Had few great games. Next… Saturday. Soccer at TPY. =)
I’m loving it? mendaks.

Tired. Tired. Tired.

Meeting Supi after work tomorrow. =0
work work work. wosh… tomorrow is FRIDAY! yeah.

Girl you know I miss you, I just wanna kiss you
But I can't right now so baby kiss me thru the phone

there goes my first pay.

2009-07-15T22:36:00.001+08:00

chill at TPY park with darling.
guess what I got after an hour at the park!
.
.
.
.
Fine for littering.
Another fine. $300 gone.
Aduh.. pahit sekali nya.
Fark la.

argh…..

Life so far……

2009-07-14T23:55:00.001+08:00

The sun will rise, Birds will sing just for you and me….

2 yrs. 24 mths of service. DONE.
Miss army so much. Went back to P.Tekong yesterday to meet the guys there. Memories. Nyah
15june2007 - 14june2009

5th batch (02/09)

4th (01/02)

3rd (04/08)
No pictures. Because i hate this batch so much. The worst batch i ever took.

2nd Batch (03/08)

1st Batch (02/08)

SISPEC (ALSC – FOXTROT)

(miss ya, bro)

SISPEC (BLSC – JULIET)

BMT – ORION

18-22June2009
KL TRIP
enjoyed my trip to KL. Pictures were uploaded in
KL ZOUK. POWER!!!!! TGIF. SUPERB. FRIENDS. PRICELESS. POWER LAH. GF lagi power ah!

Now currently working…… at Kinergy……

More updates to come…..

before its to late

2009-02-24T12:25:00.000+08:00

what about now? what about today?