I find it kind of funny, I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I’m dying are the best I’ve ever had
I find it hard to tell you, I find it hard to take
When people run in circles its a very Mad World.
Is this masquerade finally over
Can we put down the roles that we've played so many times
Is this really the final curtain
The end of the play
why should i help someone that cannot be helped?
why should I even bother with someone that cannot be bothered?
ex-colleague of mine is getting on my nerve. I’ve been very patient with him through out my stay at Kinergy. Cigarettes. Drinks. Lunch. Transport. Money.
Is it a must to smoke?
Is it a must to buy drinks from the vending machine?
Is it a must to have lunch at the centeen?
Is it a must to travel by bus?
Is it a must to borrow money to please someone else?
Fucking retarted.
Been asking for my bloody mcard, no sight of it. Wonder who took my money in my pouch? Wonder who took my MP3? I wonder? Answers which only point back at you.
You can pretend to Mr nice guy infront of me nut you are no different to any typical mats out there.
1, 2, 3, 5, 10, 20, 30. These are the figures that you asked from me.
How dare you could even ask from me again when you have not clear your debt?
So wat you are being terminated from the job. You deserve it. I don’t care.
I’m going to hunt you down. mutherwanker.
its been so long…….
what i’ve done?
Life’s in a mess. I wish I could turn back time.
My life, friends and family.
Ever since I was drop off from poly, my life is in a mess. If only i work harder during those days things would be different now. I’m starting to regret decisions I’ve made. Its damn fuck up.
What would my life be now IF i were to complete my diploma??? Things would be different. Better.
Looking at my friends. At least they are holding a Cert not just with a freaking O level cert.
nyah
Life
I’m starting to hate the life that I have now. Its so miserable. Damn pathetic. Its not easy to get a job out there. I’m job hopping. Whenever there’s a better options, I’ll go for it. Currently I’m working at one of Singapore’s statutory boards. A move from Kinergy. So ya.
I’m re re re re taking my Os again. In hoping for a better grades. haiz. I’m tired of it.
I need a permanent job. I want to settle down. I’m freaking old already. I’m so far behind from the rest. Life is a disaster.
Friends
Used to have a reasonable number of friends but now, I’m no longer contacting most them. Not their fault. I sacrifice that for happiness. Not all would understand why i said that.
Supi, Dinah, Hilman, Naina.
I thank you for being there for me. Thank you for adding happiness to my life. =))
Family
Its either I don’t understand them of they don’t understand me. I want to lead my own life. Ye la, ‘you’ said that my friends will not be there when I’m in trouble. There will only be there if I’m okay. But, since when you were around supporting me in the things that I do? Things that I like/love doing huh? No, ‘you’ weren’t there. YES, my friends were there for me most of the time. I will NEVER be like ‘you’.
Love
I love you. But why we end up this way? Yes, finally I give in. I give up. Its me. Its my fault. Its my temper that spoil it all. Its my poor ability to make U happy fuck it all up. or maybe its because of other factors?
I bring you up and the next moment I bring you to lowest point. Never fail to make you cry, don’t I? Have I betray you?
I don’t know. Ya, maybe its all different now.
I’m on the edge, save me.
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